All of me....2

igmar.photosight.ru

I had never imagined
being mired in
the rut of daily living
that there could come
a day
when I would just
feel fulfilled
wholesome
sensuous
sexual and
sacred.
And it was when
everything beautiful 
ended
beautifully
with no yearning
no pain
only a sweet ache
and there was no other
- only the loving
longing
lolled around
lightly
all over me.

Any more and....

ghorgh-bengalskiy.photosight.ru

Life taught me
I can't wish away
pain and suffering
much as I would like to 
and so I ought to face
them squarely or at least
bear them patiently.
And I have been doing that
so much so that
something pleasant
would become a surprise
tinged by fear.
So no pleasant surprises for me.
Don't ask me for anything future.
Any more of that and I
would simply fold inward
until I become a speck
to be flicked off.
Just let me
be
be live.